i try. i make mistakes. i grow. i love. i love to eat pineapple. i cook and bake whenever i can. thai food is good for my soul. i collect blankets, sweat pants, and crazy socks. i believed i was peter pan when i was a child. i love to love. summertime is my favorite. i love feeling the sun on my face. i have a lot of good intentions. i had a bull cut when i was younger. shakespeare was a genius. i love to laugh. God is everywhere. i love having painted toes. i am very blessed, and i try to "live life, every, every moment"

Sunday, May 22, 2011

What is my deal?

So here's the thing: I am going through a really rough patch right now, and I don't know how to get out of it.

Awkwardness.

No, seriously.

I know what you're thinking: "Kelly, you are already awkward" or "tell us something we don't know" or "Kelly, you're crazy, we know that"

But I'm not talking about "normal". I am seriously going through the worst patch of awkward right now, and it is REALLY stressing me out: anybody I meet, I'm SO AWKWARD. I don't know what my deal is. Boys, Girls, ANYBODY, the awkwardness just shoots out of my eyeballs and I can't stop it. Anything I audition for, I'm SO awkward. I mumble, I give the wrong impression, I'm nervous, I....I don't even know how to explain it. Anybody I talk to on the phone with, I'm awkward.

I don't know what to do, and I'm really, really discouraged about it. What is my deal. I just want to be my "normal 'awkward'". Not this.....crap. Its really sucking up my energy because I'm worrying about it so much.

What.

On.

Earth.
Posted by at 9:43 PM

1 comments:

  1. Um I so don't believe you. Kelly you are one of a kind. And I mean the AMAZING, hilarious, super sweet, creative, never meet someone like you ever again kind of "one of a kind". Don't doubt yourself. Ever. Because I think you are really great. Brandon knows you better than I and he really thinks highly of you. Whatever you may be thinking right now, you are NOT awkward. I promise. You. Are. Fabulous.
    The end. -Jessie M

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